your scent lingers on her body..
have you ever felt so lonely that you would just sit down suddenly and cry?
i have.
have you ever felt so angry that you would just turn around and lie.
i have.
have you ever felt so happy that you just wanna smile?
i have.
have you ever felt so empty that you wish for things to be a lil' different?
i have.
have you ever felt so helpless that you wanna scream and shout like a siren?
i have.
have you ever felt so frustrated that you wanna tear your hair out?
i have.
have you ever felt so denied that you wanna just give everything up?
i have.
have you ever felt so hurt that you wanna just keep walking?
i have.
have you ever felt so loved that you wanna just keep kissing?
i have.
have you ever felt so indignant that you just wanna stop explaining?
i have.
have you ever felt so wrong that you have no strength left in you?
i have.
have you ever felt so emotional that all that's left was just the blues?
i have.
have you ever felt so comforted while being in his arms?
i have.
have you ever felt that just a hug is all you need?
i have.
and she pleads.
elisha wanted ta get this car. i was like,"in ur dreams honey."
daddy has his eyes set on this. Toyota Estima Hybrid Versionhere i am. AGAIN.
how seemingly pathetic that sounded but oh crap.
jus read ballah's blog and felt a certain nostalgia..
emo-ing away for wtf and i don't know why. its just....
some things never seems ta go ur way. however badly u wanted it, it just doesn't seem ta wrk out. (im talkin 'bout wrk btw).
keep ur fingers and even ur toes crossed for luck pls. I NEED 'EM LUCK.
aaaah, music plus some. im having a heavenly lil' "me" time over here. wth, played (no wait, played sounded so wrong but whatever), with hammy(my pet hamster) today and realised tt his cage's starting ta stink. i jus changed it like last wk ?!!! seriously wondering how can such a tiny thing possibly poop-ed so much when the daily meals are only a few seeds?! na-da, its still farkin adorable nevertheless.
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everybody hates malaysian cow. (i certainly don't wonder!)
la` familiar" portrait~ (new member's pic comin up soon!)
foooooooooooooooood galore. (for starters..)
IGNORE HIPPO. FOCUS ON MARCHE`im back. i know, its getting on ur nerves reading my posts. oh bother, im all cooped up at home and im literally dying. FREAKIN BORED.
our hse is quiet for once. feels kinda weird but yeah...
eugene and miche's out for shopping.
elisha's at work.
alex is nowhere to be found.
and the taken nun's sitting on e sofa blogging. =.=
those pics above are a bout' a mth old alrdy but i had this sudden craving for Marche`!!!
its seriously THE sex. rad. or whatever u wanna call it. they used to have outlets at heeren and suntec city tower 1 (its old news by nw but oh i wanna complain). they only have one pathetic outlet at vivo. im like wtf...........
staying at wdls away from town area is already nerve wrecking at times, when you take hrs to get from one place to another. not to mention that its a totally boring area but hey, i love my home. its our acheivement, our lil' paradise =)
so yeah u get it, going from wdls to vivo isn't exactly a skip, hop and a jump away. its like how many @#%#%#^%$ stops away??!!!!! urrrrgh. oh well, it definitely has the power to "lure" me there.
hmmm.... maybe i should gather e human(s) again (this time round with my baby along- he's e newest member of e family) and we shall pig out. heh heh. *anticipating vibes=.=
'nuff bout Marche`.
i was going on 'bout being bored and stuffs earlier on. do let me get on.
i had this sudden memory jolt which i seriously need ta blog 'bout. gimme 'em opinions people aft reading it okayy? =D
first things first.
- FOR THE GIRLS WHO ARE READING THIS AND I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN WHETHER OR NOT U'RE OFFENDED NOR PISSED. COS THE BOTTOM LINE IS, IF U HAPPENED TO BE FEELIN THAT "itch" IN YOUR HEART, ITS HIGH TIME TA SEARCH/SEEK WITHIN UR OWN CONSCIENCE. AND YEAH! YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF!
why am i so darn pissed?
ans: young girls nowadays can't seem ta get 'nuf of other people's boyfriends.
HELLOOOOO?!!!!!!! WHAT PART OF OTHER PEOPLE'S BOYFRIENDS DON'T YOU GET IT?! seriously get a life already! love yourself sluts! give yourself the respect that you solely deserve! okayy, a lil' sidetrack to clarify things.
this post has absolutely NOTHING to do with me and my chippy. (in case friends out there who're wondering.),, my chippy and i are fine. im still pissed with SAF but oh well, that's secondary over here.
as i was saying, i had my girlfriend on e phone for e past nights and was SOBBING! into the phone you tak malu shameless arseholes, she's one fantastic girl so leave her alone already! if i am a guy, (and im DEAD SERIOUS), i'd have gone for her and make her mine. she cooks, she clean, she's detailed, very meticulous, spendthrift, intelligent and a witty person. *BOY, U'RE SERIOUSLY MISSING OUT IF UR HEART STRAYS ANY LONGER. STOP BEING DAFF ALREADY!)
and so the story goes like, : guy A was at Bq for a night out with his mates and some random girls his mates brought along.. my gf did not wanna tag along for she thought its only fair that her "dumb" lover has his own space. okayy, so the drinking and some wild but clean fun went up a higher notch when this shameless waitress "pounced" on guy A. (pity i dont have ur name slut, if not ur repu's seriously gg down the drain in no time. and believe me when i say so). what the slut did was the norm. well, i don't entirely blame it all on the slut either, (im fair aye). if guy A did not succumbed to temptations, nth major could have happened isn't it? but hold on ur asses peeps, here's more.
she PSYCHO-ED guy A to buy 2 bottles of chivas/martell as its on promo. (guess its due to the seasonal thingy.). and her catch was, "if u buy from me, i'd drink all night with you plus some more..." NOTE THE WORD: some more! seriously how shameless can u get? so the climax of the entire crime would be, guy A (apparently couldn't hold his liquor well or prolly faking it to get some bed fun) had sex at e back alley of Bq with the slut.
let me break it down slut, (in e event of u mis-reading my words).
-YOU'RE DAMN SANE, CLEAR HEADED AND ALERT AT THAT POINT OF TIME.
-NOBODY'S FORCING YA.
-THE GUY'S DARN DRUNK FOR CHRIST'S SAKE.
-YOU DON'T THROW YOURSELF AT GUYS. (have abit of dignity will ya)
-C'MON ALREADY! ARE YOU THAT DESPERATE THAT YOU HAVE TO GO MAKE OUT AND GET LAID WITH A GUY WHO'S ATTACHED??! at the BACK ALLEY SIAL, u can seriously go dunk ur head into the toiletbowl and try to drown.
-NO GIRLS (and im talkin 'bout girls here, u guys will know why at the end of the post) WOULD STILL HAVE THE "face" TO ANSWER HIS PHONE KNOWING DARN WELL THAT ITS THE GIRLFRIEND CALLING. AND TO ACTUALLY HOLLERED AT THE POOR GIRL ON E OTHER LINE SAYIN,"ba ni de nan ren rang gei wo lei...ta xian zai xi huan wo le ni bu zhi dao meh?"
OH MY BOOBS AND EVERYTHING ELSE! are you outta ur mind? u're not on drugs for sure cos they did a raid on that night and u're safe. u're not high on alocohol cos even if u were, don't bullshit pls. *WHOEVER WHO'S DRUNK HAS A ONE THIRD OF SENSE STILL IN HIM/HER). and that's a fact slut.
so, my point is, im shoving it literally into that face of urs. sex and the answering of my girlfriend's call aside. why do you have ta continue bothering guy A? stop buzzing him alrdy! you got wad u wanted. you totally ruined a happy 3yrs rela. now the trust is broken and the poor girlfriend of mine had ta cry herself to slp practically every night. just how utterly shameless can u get? how thick can YOU GET?! boy, im seriously losing it. shit stuffs happened, but this one tops off e list by far. i've had had a couple of really horrible experiences, but wad u did surpassed it all. be glad the other party wasn't me slut. (start giving ur thanks and stop ruining other people's lives), or rather, go get urself a sex partner if ur puss's itching for a gd one. (pardon me my friends, im sounding crude but WHATEVER!)
i gotta stop letting my fingers fly across the keyboard and get back to consoling my gf.
*yo mama had one too many at tt point of time tt's why she gave birth to u, its a no wonder as the saying goes.."LIKE MOTHER, LIKE DAUGHTER." wad kinda upbringing determined wad kinda person u are. go stuff urself slut. u don't deserve sympathy. my words aren't harsh mind you, they're merely facts.
P.s, if i ever bumped into u while im @ Bq, consider urself dead.
P.p.s, THE SLUT'S ONLY 16!!!
its another day. think my cell phone's gg dead on me soon serious. im thinkin of a new phone, freakin serious. but monetary issues are kinda getting on me. omg. let's nt think bout it. 'neways, went down to e office today ta clear up some stuffs and do some submission on my part. its a real touchy situation but am glad tt its all cleared up. phew~! like finally puhlease. that malay shit is seriously gettin on my nerves. some nincompoop fella in e dept im working in. okayy, im digressing, but i dont give a heck.
he's the following:
1) irresponsible
2) incorrigible
3) disgusting
4) tak malu!
5) thick hide
6) superbly turn off
7) a total ass
8) one mofoking hobo
9) a brainless shorty
10) selfish self centred ungentlemanly fella!
pardon the uncouth-ness mentioned above. but if ever any of my blood vessels were to go bust, BLAME IT ON HIM!!!! if my blog ever goes duper public, i'd publish his name online. i swear. he can sue me for all i care. SERIOUSLY COULDNT CARE LESS. such a shallow arsey shouldnt deserve any significance or diginity. none to speak of in fact.
'nuff bout that malay balls already.
sister dear's moving back to folk's place like uber soon. by e end of this mth, she's gone and outta e hse @ wdls. one less member in e extended family. im sure to miss her like hell. gawd. cant imagine without her sleeping and "kickin" by my side, its sure gonna be weird. there will be nobody to bicker with, nobody ta snatch things with. aha! sister dear, come back ta help me out with household chores yea?!!!
my apologies. today's post's kinda rushy and jumpy. abit here and abit there. im tired, and with michelle (THAT HIPPO) yakking right beside my ear is a huge hindrance for me ta type my stuffs out. am gonna end here peeps, miche's being real irritating. she invaded my bed btw! whenever she laughs, the entire bed wobbles. im like wtf. lol.
gotta go. im stretching my hands.
gonna strangle hippo alive.
toodles!
P.s, i wasn't tryin ta offend any malay(s). i do have loads of malay frens who are superb.
its just this particular one arsey.
[[~i love you more everyday,
my name i long for you to say,
do you know just how i feel?
do you know this love is real?
sometimes, i wonder what you really think.
when you hear my name, does your cheeks turn pink?
do u dream 'bout me every night?
wish to hug me and hold me tight?
do you think we're meant to be together forever, you & me?
these are the questions that ran through my mind,
your way into my heart, you'd find.
it drives me crazy as to what i should do,
should i risk it and confess to you?
or, should i keep my feelings inside,
keep 'em locked up, let 'em hide.
i don't know what to do anymore,
it aches, its sore.
i love you so much,
don't wanna let you go..
so,
even if i'm just a friend,
i'll love you till the end.....~]]
God never let us love and be wise at the same time.
Men gives love to get sex,
Women gives sex to get love.
Don't let the bastards grind you down,
Once bitten, twice shy.
A lesson learnt, a heart damn hurt.
If i asked you to stay,
would you tell me that you would be mine?
I watch my thoughts,
they become words.
I watch my words,
they become actions,
I watch my actions,
they become habits.
I watch my habits,
they become character.
I watch my character,
it becomes my destiny.
friends are important in one's life. dont ya think? i have many friends. but this one tops it off e list.
(btw, im sounding like a kiddo from grade one but wth who cares)
'neways, let's move on shall we.
she's a nincompoop.
she's an elephant.
she's a hippo.
she's chubby.
she's totally horrendous.
she's thick skin.
she's a b_tch.
BUT SHE GOES THRU THICK & THIN WITH ME.
my bff.
her name's michelle aka meng.
call her hippo or elephant anyone??
;) ;)
N.Y.D.C love
credits to hippo
totally dig Hk Cafe
its okay, i wont admit tt u're lookin like one obasan
new blog, new post, new hairstyle.
(hairstyle's pics nt up yet tho.)
'neways, gran passed away last wk. was like, OMFG.
was aslp and family totally bombarded my cell. glad tt everything's over and gran's up in heaven.
R.i.P granny, i love ya.
been thinkin 'bout loads of stuffs lately. there's too many thoughts floating ard which needs resolving or sorting out. oh well, damn the brain, mind, heart, whatever.
ikea love!
